permanant peace

It's kinda crazy. Being a somewhat recent (2007) college graduate, I'm still a little stuck in the mindset that everything I do is temporary. Let me explain - in college, I moved from Ohio to Nashville - for 4 years. I worked summer jobs - for the summer. I worked school-year jobs, for the school year. I went on mission trips - 2 weeks at a time. I moved in and moved out of my parents house, the dorms, my aunt and uncle's house, wherever. No decision I made seemed truly permanent, with the exception of marrying Logan (which I definitely view as permanant!)

So now we're coming up on our two-year anniversary of being youth ministers in Tuscaloosa. (DISCLAIMER: we are NOT thinking of leaving! Just getting adjusted!) We just bought our first house (after 2 apartments) - a huge commitment! We finally feel like we're getting our feet on the ground in so many ways. I love the realization that we get to spend more than 4 years in one place (Lord willing). I love knowing that God has put us somewhere to grow with people and plan for the long road. I was looking at some youth group pictures from two summers ago, and loved seeing how much the students have changed and grown! But sometimes I feel so restless. It's like I want to be in a million places, doing a million things all at once.

I know that the Spirit is trying to tell me something, but it's so hard to drown out the noise of life to listen. I want to hear His call. I want to be where the Spirit is, doing His work. I think this restlessness comes from just that - being too occupied to listen to God. If all of God's people would follow His command to take a Sabbath day of rest every week, how much more would He do through us?

"Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. After the fire came a gentle whisper."
1 Kings 19:11-12

He's always speaking, yet I'm not always listening. Oh Lord, I'll listen...